Allison Holker Says That Late Husband Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss ‘Wasn’t the Same’ After ‘Ayahuasca Journey’
The widow says that Boss “never fully escaped” what the psychedelic brew opened up.
By Jaelani Turner-Williams
February 5, 2025 / 9:39 AM
Allison Holker, the widow of late “Ellen” DJ and dancer Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss, believes that her husband’s life was altered after he went on an “ayahuasca journey.”
Ahead of the release of her memoir “This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light,” Holker appeared on “The Jamie Kern Lima Show” on Tuesday, February 4, where she shared details about her late husband’s psychedelic experience. The Indigenous psychoactive brew produces a hallucinogenic effect and is generally used for mental, spiritual and ritual reasons. But as Holker shared, Boss, who died by suicide on December 13, 2022, might have felt emotionally drained after the trip.
“I feel like his heart was never really in the same place when he came back,” Holker said around the 37-minute mark of the video below. “He still could find joy and he could still go day
by day, putting on his face and getting through the days, but there was something missing in his eyes.”
She continued, “It just kind of feels like he opened something up to himself that he never healed. And never fully escaped.”
Last month, Holker alleged that following Boss’ death, she found a “cornucopia” of drugs, like psychedelic mushrooms and pills, that he supposedly left behind. “It was a really triggering moment for me because there were a lot of things I discovered in our closet that I did not know existed,” she told “People.” The couple married in 2013 and share two children, while Holker has a 16-year-old daughter from a previous relationship.
Boss’ relatives have since called out Holker for allegedly exploiting the late DJ, including his mother, Connie Boss Alexander, who shared in an Instagram post last month that Holker’s claims were “misleading and hurtful.”
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